Sleep....

not that 20 after 1 is late for me by any means, but I'm having one of those increasingly common nights, and I'm really beginning to hate it. alternating between laying down, and sitting up. I've tried to sleep, I really have. But yet, here I am, wide awake. My eyes burning, telling me I need it, which is in turn causing my neck to tense up. Not that it needed the help, past couple days being what they were. And that in turn, causing a headache. None of which is helping me sleep any. Two things that help, one, not happening tonight, and the other, alcohol. And I'm not willing to make that a habit just to get some sleep at night. yes, I'm usually up till at least 3, which is probably the root of my problem. That, and a billion things running through my mind. Thinking about life, others, recent events, past events, weighing rewards, and consequences, choices, and the thousands of possible combinations and outcomes of each choice. I've been told that that kind of thinking makes me a leader, the fact that I can plan things out so well in advance, and have ways of countering most things that can happen. Some of these people have tried to convince me to go through advanced officer training, counseling, engineering, etc, etc, etc... Yes I like engineering, in fact, I like doing it, I'm a natural problem solver, its what I do. But I digress, none of this means shit right not, because all those abilities, don't mean shit compared to the fact that I can't sleep. None of its helping me right this second. I can't make me. Oh well, just figured I'd rant for a bit, lol, tune in next time.....