Sleep....

not that 20 after 1 is late for me by any means, but I'm having one of those increasingly common nights, and I'm really beginning to hate it. alternating between laying down, and sitting up. I've tried to sleep, I really have. But yet, here I am, wide awake. My eyes burning, telling me I need it, which is in turn causing my neck to tense up. Not that it needed the help, past couple days being what they were. And that in turn, causing a headache. None of which is helping me sleep any. Two things that help, one, not happening tonight, and the other, alcohol. And I'm not willing to make that a habit just to get some sleep at night. yes, I'm usually up till at least 3, which is probably the root of my problem. That, and a billion things running through my mind. Thinking about life, others, recent events, past events, weighing rewards, and consequences, choices, and the thousands of possible combinations and outcomes of each choice. I've been told that that kind of thinking makes me a leader, the fact that I can plan things out so well in advance, and have ways of countering most things that can happen. Some of these people have tried to convince me to go through advanced officer training, counseling, engineering, etc, etc, etc... Yes I like engineering, in fact, I like doing it, I'm a natural problem solver, its what I do. But I digress, none of this means shit right not, because all those abilities, don't mean shit compared to the fact that I can't sleep. None of its helping me right this second. I can't make me. Oh well, just figured I'd rant for a bit, lol, tune in next time.....

Boredom is evil...

I hate being bored. Its one thing I have no problem complaining about. Everyone gets bored
occasionaly, so I don't feel bad  bitching about it. Maybe its just me. I'm bored now. It sucks.
I don't know what to do about it. My favorite way to change that is to talk to my girlfriend (who is
amazing btw, but more on that later). But she isn't feeling well, so I'd really hate to bother her :(
Sure there are plenty of things I can do. But if you are anything like me, you look at a lot of it and
say, ehh, don't feel like it. Like video games, there are a few that I love playing, but I so much as
look at the xbox, ehh, sounds boring, definitely don't want to increase the boredom. Listen to music,
great idea, ok, but now that my ears are busy, I'm still not doing anything. I'm being bored, in rythm.
Though I can't deny, music will take me away, just not right now. I can read, I love reading, you can say
its an addiction of mine. But I look at all of my books, there are so many, and I love more than a few
like I can't describe. But therein lies the problem, I've read them way to many times to solve my problem.
I can watch a movie. I own close to 400 of them. Guess what? Same problem as the books. Yes, they are great movies. I love movies, but you can only watch them so many times before you know every part by heart, veryline, and so you by new ones. Which is why I have so many. But it isn't always practical to do so. Legos!!Everyone's favorite past time. They can let you express your creativity in so many ways, until you run out.Which is my problem, I don't think there are enough legos in the world to contain my creativity. Photo
editing. Awesome idea, and I have this absolutely amazing idea, but its going to take some prep work. Not
I have time for right now. The list goes on and on, and always an excuse as to why I can't, or don't want to
to whatever activity I come up with. And so here I am, writing a blog, that I doubt people will read. But
guess what? I just kept myself occupied for the last 30 minutes. Not being bored, by talking about being
bored. Define irony.... But if you do happen to come across this, by all means, give me an idea of something
to do. You just may be my hero and come up with something I haven't thought of. Until then...

Intro

So I've had the thought of doing one of these off and on for awhile. I'm not much of a writer, never have been. I was asked to make one, and now I'm thinking it may be a good idea. I can't promise you'll like what I post, or that it will make any sense to you, but I'll do what I can to make it interesting every once in a while, lol. As always, comments, and constructive criticism is always welcome. That being said, welcome to my mind